The pandemic has changed everything. As a freelance photographer, I don’t get a salary, because I work on a retainer. And that works for me, because I can do what I want when I'm not shooting soccer. But now that i can’t go out and shoot at all, because I’m stuck inside the house, what I’ve been up to is like pitching ideas and working on content plans for when this is all over. In all the emails, I’m told to come up with ideas and to pitch ideas, but it’s kind of odd knowing that it’s all on hold for at least seven or eight months.
The Olympics and Euros [soccer tournament] were going to be really big events for me this summer, and thank God they're just postponed and not canceled. And honestly, I’ve lost a lot of money. At the beginning of the year, i planned to make a certain amount of money, and with Euros and the Olympics not happening, I have so much more time where now nothing is happening.
I’m not gonna lie and say that I’ve been like, working constantly [since quarantine started]. But there was a lot of sitting in my house and just coming up with ideas to send to my supervisors, to try and continue to do something. And when that was over, it was doing just arts and crafts in my living room. I work with acrylic paint, and I’ve started a drawing club on my Instagram. I put out a prompt on Mondays and Fridays, and I have all of my friends reply to the post with their drawings, and that’s been pretty cool. You gotta think outside of the box to keep yourself entertained. Especially for someone like me who is super high-energy.
If I’m not pitching or working, then I’m either doing arts and crafts, listening to music or cooking. I left the city because it got to the point where the only thing I thought about was coronavirus. It’s crazy, my mental state after leaving the city. Ben and I, we live together and we’re best friends, there's no issues there. But we were like sitting ducks in the living room, with TV on, just seeing the numbers go up and everything. When you're in a small apartment, there's nowhere to hide from this stuff.
I would say that [quarantine] has changed my view of how I spend time with myself. A lot of the time, when I used to chill at my crib, I would just watch YouTube videos or something. And now, I have this whole other thing, like the drawing club. And a lot of photographers are in this gray zone. We don't know what to do. No one really knows what to do. Because we know as soon as this ends, and the quarantine gets lifted, we know it's just gonna be right back to what we were doing, with traveling and shooting. This crisis doesn't change how I view the next five years, but in the meantime, it’s changed so much.